Pandemic Laughter

Winner, winner, chicken dinner

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Haven’t spent a lot of time on tumblr

Been busy with the new house and work. My schedule is crazy right now. I missed getting my schedule in before others had scheduled. We make our own schedules, but it’s first come first serve…..if you don’t get there early, you have to work the shifts that are left open. So it’s been a trial.

It’s been difficult without the kids. I didn’t plan on leaving them and am frustrated in ways about somethings, but I’ll make adjustments best I can.

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I now live about five minutes from one of my besties.  She talked me into to going out last night after working in moving in my house through the day.  We had a good time.  

Tonight I need to go to work.

I now live about five minutes from one of my besties. She talked me into to going out last night after working in moving in my house through the day. We had a good time.

Tonight I need to go to work.

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When [an abusive man] tells me that he became abusive because he lost control of himself, I ask him why he didn’t do something even worse. For example, I might say, “You called her a fucking whore, you grabbed the phone out of her hand and whipped it across the room, and then you gave her a shove and she fell down. There she was at your feet where it would have been easy to kick her in the head. Now, you have just finished telling me that you were ‘totally out of control’ at that time, but you didn’t kick her. What stopped you?” And the client can always give me a reason. Here are some common explanations:

"I wouldn’t want to cause her a serious injury."
“I realized one of the children was watching.”
“I was afraid someone would call the police.”
“I could kill her if I did that.”
“The fight was getting loud, and I was afraid the neighbors would hear.”

And the most frequent response of all:

"Jesus, I wouldn’t do that. I would never do something like that to her.”

The response that I almost never heard — I remember hearing it twice in the fifteen years — was: “I don’t know.”

These ready answers strip the cover off of my clients’ loss of control excuse. While a man is on an abusive rampage, verbally or physically, his mind maintains awareness of a number of questions: “Am I doing something that other people could find out about, so it could make me look bad? Am I doing anything that could get me in legal trouble? Could I get hurt myself? Am I doing anything that I myself consider too cruel, gross, or violent?”

A critical insight seeped into me from working with my first few dozen clients: An abuser almost never does anything that he himself considers morally unacceptable. He may hide what he does because he thinks other people would disagree with it, but he feels justified inside. I can’t remember a client ever having said to me: “There’s no way I can defend what I did. It was just totally wrong.” He invariably has a reason that he considers good enough. In short, an abuser’s core problem is that he has a distorted sense of right and wrong.

I sometimes ask my clients the following question: “How many of you have ever felt angry enough at youer mother to get the urge to call her a bitch?” Typically half or more of the group members raise their hands. Then I ask, “How many of you have ever acted on that urge?” All the hands fly down, and the men cast appalled gazes on me, as if I had just asked whether they sell drugs outside elementary schools. So then I ask, “Well, why haven’t you?” The same answer shoots out from the men each time I do this exercise: “But you can’t treat your mother like that, no matter how angry you are! You just don’t do that!”

The unspoken remainder of this statement, which we can fill in for my clients, is: “But you can treat your wife or girlfriend like that, as long as you have a good enough reason. That’s different.” In other words, the abuser’s problem lies above all in his belief that controlling or abusing his female partner is justifiable….

Lundy Bancroft, Why Does He Do That? Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men (via seebster)


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I’ve seen this before. Didn’t realize it was a book. Guess I have another read planned soon. (should look for the book).

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Don’t let shitty people destroy you. No matter what you do, they will never care enough. It’s not because you aren’t good enough. It’s not because there is something wrong with you. It’s not because you don’t deserve it. In fact it has nothing to do with you. Don’t waste your efforts and feelings on them. Start living for yourself.